The dying might have learnt the
end of their lives even before their actual death when they
could hear their dearest preparing to dispose off their
lifeless body at the earliest. If there is a life after
death and if the dead can watch the last farewell by their
most trusted friends and relatives, and if they could ever
remember the previous death experience, they will never wish
to take a rebirth even in the most beautiful heaven to die
again.
Many people are teaching the art
of living, to continue that is bound to end or art to reach
the heights without teaching the art to descent. All of them
help to board the best train without any bothering for the
real destination. There are many professional gurus engaged
as guides to the path to heavens. They themselves have not
yet experienced what they generally tell others to
experience. They have learnt the theories of their
profession from some literature, which is probably written
by someone to satisfy his own worldly requirements.
The human beings have formed
different communities to remain secured. Securities, fear,
craze to be rich for happy lives are the main factors to
make many people believe in some kind of God. But the true
God, if any, remains just an illusion to millions of
helpless suffering souls. These helpless souls, even during
their last breath, prefer to believe that they are going to
heaven as God may consider their case even after death. The
heaven is a scene expressed by their elders/gurus of their
community or it is imagined based on individual's
perceptions. God is only considered to be a mean to achieve
what remains unachievable. God is being treated as a tool
for personal gains. It is being treated as some supper
friend, guardian, merciful, almighty, and an item of
security cover mainly available from religious places or
gurus.
God is defined in variety of
ways. Even those who don't believe in God have defined him
in a form in they don't believe in.
The scientific community,
considered to be the most allergic from this mysterious word
"GOD" have not yet known even more than 1% of
their own brain. They are far way from the real mystery of
universe. In fact no body is really concerned to know the
ultimate simple truth. The primary object of every living
being is to fight for its own survival and gains. Even the
firm believer of God too wishes to remain on both sides of
the fence by saying, " God helps those who help
themselves". They generally wish to have complete
control with them by designing the blueprint of their future
by themselves and try to assign some difficult problems to
God while keeping the simpler one with them. They try to
please God with their money power by contributing to religious places, by organizing charitable
functions, by distributing food and medicines to the poor
and by loud chanting through loudspeakers. They contribute a
small segment of their earnings as a way to bribe God so
that their business may continue to flourish. They know they
are using many illegal means to earn but they consider it as
their internal matter.
Even scientists prefer to ignore
some realities to safeguard their own personal gains. With
their money power they have also formed strong lobbies where
they try to safeguard their own existence, fame and gains.
There are countries, governments, political parties,
communities, welfare associations and many underground
organizations that are mainly working for their own
survival. All of them claim to be the well-wisher of human
beings. Their fear and lack of trust among each other has
created a complete jungle of this beautiful Earth. Every one
is trying to possess the weapons of mass destruction. About
90% resources of this earth are being used up for protection
from our own created enemies. But, no one is really bothered
for his or her own battle, namely the security from our own
"death". We consider it to be already lost. The
word "death" is the most hated word but it is the
only reality that forces many of us to seek some hidden
power namely God. In fact our ignorance, fear of insecurity
or any other unfulfilled wish compels us to find some magic
power in the form of God or dirty weapons. Many try to have
both, God and weapons. May be very few have ever imagined
the real God or have tried to find the real purpose of life.
Myself always remained very eager
to know as to why the mysterious word "God" have
ever been so popular ever since the mankind came into
existence even when majority of us have failed to find it.
It may be that during the act of worshiping we are
unknowingly surrendering to some kind of God of our
imagination that helps to relax our overexcited mental veins
and creates a condition for our mind to operate some new
functions. May be the act of surrender is the real science
which is similar to sleep that must happen to recharge some
hidden powers of our mind. God appeared to have come from
vacuum and different communities have given it an identity
based on their own experiences and necessities. But, that
does not prove that there may not be a real supper
intelligent force that can be named as God.
I am also a believer of God since
I too prefer to cover maximum risk. I was not only
interested to know the working of general scientific stuffs
but also have devoted my spare time to seek the knowledge of
God. I could find some mysterious persons associated with
this science and have tried different prayers and "pujas".
I was lucky to experience some strange happenings probably
that can be a supportive evidence to God of my imagination.
I have also met many astrologers
but it was a wonderful experience to meet a person who was
able to predict future by some "Siddhi" technique.
He claimed to have out of body experience. He explained that
during the out of body experience one will experience a
condition similar to dream but it wouldn't be out of
imaginations. These can be termed as dreams as you are
watching the scene without using your physical eyes but at
the same time it is all real since you are not sleeping.
During this condition you can watch your own body and
generally you are floating around it. Some people have been
found to be going far away even to other planets. During
this condition you can observe many other wandering souls
and can interact with them. You can test the validity of
your observations if you have just visited a nearby place.
You will experience your two different bodies; the
materialistic and some thing like non-materialistic. You
will find yourself complete with your memory and sense of
feelings in your non-materialistic form except that you
won't find easy to have physical contacts. You can watch,
hear, feel warmth and smell not only from your surroundings
but can also read the brains of other persons. An another
test is that your heart will be beating strangely.
If I consider his findings to be
true I feel that I may have also experienced this strange
phenomena momentarily on two occasions. I have watched my
exact posture of sleeping from the window of my room and
have observed my daughter standing behind me during a catnap
sleep. May be many of us have experienced it unknowingly. If
the consciousness can exit without physical body, there can
be a more powerful consciousness prevailing in all over the
universe.
Since I have experienced some
unknown phenomena, I can't deny the presence of God but
still I am not capable to perceive it beyond doubt by my
limited mental capability.
To my imagination, God can be a
system or an intelligence force beyond our comprehension. It
can create unimaginative conditions such as it can make you
feel cold even if your body is in flames. But, we know that
such conditions can also be created by hypnosis. We actually
don't need more than that, as we are only concerned for the
feeling of our own well-being. Why to seek full God when
your purpose is solved? But I wished to go a little further
since I am more concerned with life beyond death. I feel
astonished to see people addicted to enjoy the temporary
phase of life without any concern to their horrify end. The
same people are found to be most disturbed if they happen to
loose their little money purse. This strange behavior of
humans does indicate that we are made to behave and feel
that has already been planned by our creating system. I feel
very sad to see the helpless innocent creatures dying at
young age. I feel very painful when I have to kill the
cockroaches, flies, mosquitoes etc. I can imagine the pain
and agony of those suffering with AIDS and other dreaded
diseases. I may be called weak hearted or coward, as I can't
enjoy their sufferings. I want to know the real culprit
behind the sufferings of all innocent creatures. I have a
feeling that God too has limitations, as He can't save us
from our sufferings. He can't help us to remain immortal. He
is a slave to His own laws.
When I could not find any one to
solve the puzzle of life and death, I just told my self,
" Forget God. If I am too afraid of death and if there
is no other alternative, I need to compromise with death. I
must find out why there is a fear of death. I have to find
out its useful factors. I should prepare myself to enjoy it.
I need to seek maximum knowledge by best utilizing the
present. Why should we be ignorant and afraid of our own
Universe when we are the part of this universe! Since we are
the part of this universe (nature), the nature (God) should
be the most careful and friendly to us. The fear, pain and
all our other disturbances must be a result of our own
ignorance that leads us to a wrong environment where we try
to be smarter than our naturally assigned limitations. We
must accept that if we can't conquer the death or the fear
of death, our life will be a complete waste. And, if we willfully
try to forget the reality by remaining completely
addicted to enjoy the sweetness of life, we are not
different from an ordinary pigeon. The pigeon generally
closes his eyes when a cat pounces on him. It may be that he
perceives himself to be safe when not watching the attacking
enemy.
We too are here to die but in a
most appropriate and satisfied way. We are here not to
commit suicide, or wait for the worst to happen or to loot
and kill others for our short-lived comforts. We are here to
be blessed by the knowledge of ultimate truth and the
everlasting complete happiness. We need to harvest the real
fruit from our beautiful plant that has been gifted to us in
the form of our body. Our body is the most precious and
unique item that we can ever possess. But it is available
for a very short period. It is completely temporary. It
needs to be the best utilized to clear the final exam.
In my views, our real victory can
be only when we can understand that the death is also as
important as our day to day sleep. We don't need to push it
beyond a limit. As long as we don't learn to swim towards
the flow we are bound to undergo great sufferings. The pain
and fear may be the nature's useful signals to alert the
living creatures to follow the right path. Pain or
disturbance is not only caused by any physical torture but
the worst can be experienced when your own trust worthy
friends, relatives or family members deceive you. It is even
worst when your all life long earnings slip away in the end
of journey.
Strangely, every one is aware of
whatever mentioned above but still we prefer to ignore the
reality by trying to get lost in the pursuit to acquire
money, power and temporary gains. The human beings have the
tendency to be satisfied by winning others. They don't enjoy
to be left behind in any competition. But, if they know that
every body is going to perish, they don't mind to be get
perished with them. Most of our time is used up in
competition with our fellow beings, to show up our
superiority till we find ourselves trapped in the clutches
of our own death. At the last moment of emergency, almost
every one tries to take a chance by seeking some God as the
only alternative. Those last precious moments may be
transforming some living beings to such a purest form that
they may not need any God any more. It is easy to find God
when we don't really need it.
Now just consider the following
questions:
These are the main questions I
used to put to people who claimed to be spiritually perfect.
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Is God really existing?
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Why is God required to do corrections in His plans for
someone praying to him?
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Does it mean God is not a good planner from the
beginning?
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When we consider him to be complete in all respects,
why He needs buttering and prayers?
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Does God really punish any one for wrong deeds?
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Does God rewards any one for good job?
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How can you judge if you are doing wrong or good?
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Well if you are helping a blind man, you will
certainly feel that you are doing a good job. But on the
other hand if God has made him blind for some
punishment, you may be helping a criminal.
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Why God should worry about all this nonsense when he
is not going to loose or gain any thing?
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How can we make God happy when he is above grief and
pains and is never unhappy?
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Why God can not eliminate sufferings of every creature
by his almighty strength and complete control?
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Does it mean he too enjoys the cruelty on his own
creatures?
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There are many nice humans who help the needy without
expecting any gains from them. They help the needy
because they can not see their sufferings. Can't God do
the same thing when he is super rich and merciful or
else these nice humans are not acting as per his wishes?
Or may be he is acting through these nice humans.
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If we consider him to be using nice humans to help the
needy, he may also be using the bad humans to create
troubles and sufferings to establish his importance so
that the sufferers may continue to beg and pray.
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Don't you feel that God is creating all this confusion
and doing this juggling? Otherwise who is going to
remember him?
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Or, don't you think we have created all these
confusions by ourselves and have invented the word God
as a web for our own trapping; or rather, a way to
create fear among the miscreants or opponents?
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But, unfortunately, the miscreants too have invented
their own God. Now it is a fight among the different
believers of God including the non-believers. We are
looming around our third world war. We are going to burn
our beautiful Earth to fulfill our short-lived personal
gains and God may be eager to watch and enjoy this great
event.
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If God is so confusing and unpredictable how can we
trust him?
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If we consider God to be in full control, he needs to
explain his real motive not only to his followers but
also to all the living beings.
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Why he prefers to be hidden?
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Why are we required to pray or beg repeatedly?
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Is he so hard of hearing?
One day I met a person, who asked me, " Do you need
answers to these questions or wish to see God".
I said, " Both".
He said," What are you going to get, once you find
your answers".
I said, " It will satisfy me".
He said, " So you want to be satisfied through your
answers. But you may find more questions and it may be a continuous
process. You may have to take many births to complete this
process. Can you believe that the universe does exist and if
it is here it must be based on some scientific laws. And
there should be answer to every question? It may be that we
are not so qualified to understand each and every answer
".
I said, " If my mind can create any question it
should be capable to understand its answer too".
He said," You appeared to be like a patient who wish
to learn MBBS from the doctor before he can start his
treatment for your sufferings".
I said," Take it other way, I will definitely try to
know if the doctor is really qualified".
He said, "Ok, What will you like to know
first".
I said, " I will like to have my answers first. I am
not so interested to see beautiful or handsome God. He may
not be even so handsome as I have imagined".
He said, " So you only want to test the existence of
God in your own way".
I said, " Yes, of course. I am not going to believe
any one as God even if it happens to appear in any strange
magical way or even if it can perform magical acts. I am
already seeing the greatest act of magic when I see myself
among the unlimited numbers of galaxies of countless planets
that are moving in so perfection for my survival. My main
problem is associated with my own bundle of questions. These
are not only that I have already mentioned above. For
example I will also like to know why any person produces a
strange meaningless sound and stretches the mussels of his
mouth when he laughs. In fact clarification to each and
every event of the universe, including myself".
I again asked him, " Have you seen God? Do you have
any connection with him? Why should I believe that you are
really dearer and nearer to God? ".
He said," Yes I have felt God in my own way. But I
wish others should also feel him in their own way. It
strengthens my faith. I enjoy others experiences as I can't
guess His unlimited properties".
He continued, " But you will have to surrender to me
as a patient and should be prepared to devote some time for
some prayer".
I replied, " No, I can't surrender like that and I
can't accept any prayers or any other unknown formula. If
you are known to God let him make the things simple and
straight. You already know my questions. You can pray on my
behalf as it will be more effective".
He said," But you need to be a little cooperative,
as you want to solve your own problems. Remember that you
will need to open your palm to hold your gift, as nothing
will be forced on you. I will pray on your behalf but you
too need to do something. At least you can repeat your
questions as prayer. You can compose your own prayer".
I said, " Why am I required to repeat it again and
again".
He explained me the meaning of prayer and necessity to
repeat.
I asked, " To whom I will be required to pray".
He said, " Select from all the religions turn by
turn. Imagine in your own way and see for yourself as to who
satisfies you. I think, people generally never stick to one
doctor for their incurable diseases. You should also give
main importance to your own problem rather than to a
particular religion, profession or person".
I discussed it with my wife and we both decided to take a
chance.
Strangely, within a week, my wife
and myself experienced strange phenomena. I experienced a
condition that was descried as "Khumari". It is
strange condition of enjoyment where mind stops producing
questions. One feels as if he is Just like God and every
thing is moving as per his wishes.
Unknowingly, I could convert my
ordinary food to "PARASAD". It turns your food as
the most delicious and energetic. But, that person
immediately warned me not to indulge in adventures without
his knowledge. He said," You have created "Amrit"
that you are not supposed to eat like your ordinary food. It
needs to be distributed among the true seekers of truth. You
can't distribute it to every one. Since you don't know how
to handle it you should not try such acts". Even after
his warning I could not resist myself and tried the act
again but it didn't work.
My wife also had her own
experiences.
But these were all short-lived
experiences.
After some years, the same person
suffered with brain tumor and had to undergo major surgery.
He was not the same person any more. He avoided meeting me
any more. His senior also died prematurely. One of my
friends, who too used to meet him to experience
spirituality, died of throat cancer. These happenings
created more confusion. I failed to understand as to why the
super power ditched their trusted followers. In my views,
they may have been required to be more disciplined careful
ones they got the admission in the higher organization.
Humans easily get trapped in egos and start misusing their
powers, which generally proves fatal to their own existence.
I have met many strange
personalities and have experienced other unique experiences
but the reality remained eluded from me. I have lot of
experiences to mention here but I can't give extensive
details due to shortage of space and some other
restrictions. Practically I am not a journalist or a good
writer. Even I am not a good speaker, as I remained isolated
from general public since I spent most of my time in making
paintings, programming and designing.
Our ancestors
have already created volumes of literatures on spirituality
but many of them have not bothered to archive their
experiences. They have avoided fame and fortune. They don't
prefer to be called Gurus, as they don't like to waste time
to preach the masses. They consider themselves not authorised
to interfere in His kingdom till there is a clear direction
to do so. They prefer to utilise their precious time
to acquire more knowledge rather than going to crowd to show
off their skills to be praised and cared. They don't need us
any more as they have found their right path.
I
felt the need to explore the mystery of God by scientific
reasoning
Reality
of Time....
